Sucker for Romance.

This needs to be read while listening to this amazing song by Wet Leg called Being in Love, here's the link:

 

Girls have always told me that they don't believe I'm romantic when it comes to a relationship or when in a relationship, specially lately, but I've always considered myself a romantic fool, and it's a thought I had a lot this weekend, so here I am thinking about the experiences I had in the past, and fuck me my life has been full of super tiny romantic moments , swear that most of my kisses have been straight from a movie scene, and I know that this is not the only thing they mean by "being romantic" but wanted to write some of them down for posterity, you know, sometimes I do come back and reread my little blog rants and it a really cool experience.

First of all let me tell you that I've been thinking a lot about this because of this girl that has been wandering my mind lately, and when I was in the shower today I started remembering lots of scenarios that have been fucking awesome, here's a small list of some of them in no particular order of relevance or occurrence

1.- There was this girl I used to love and spend most of my time with, she was a great cook and always invited me over for breackfast and forced me to skip classes, we were (and still are) great friends tho se doesn't live in MX anymore.

One time we were hanging out in a park near her house and were fighting over something, I cannot remember if she was trying to take something from me in a playful manner or if it was the other way around, but suddenly, this super fucking cinematic movie moment started playing when we fell and started rolling down a small hill and ended up looking to each others faces and started kissing, come on, tell me this does not bring a smile to your face while picturing it? It better does.

2.- Another time, I went to a festival with a group of my friends, it was one of the earlier Hellow Fest which still happened inside La Huasteca, with a pretty amazing view of mountains surrounding the place in its entirety and it was still early, the sun was up, weather was just perfect, sunny but not hot at all, weird thing for Monterrey during those years, but anyway, one of my best (girl) friends brought along a friend of her which I've never met before but instantly liked, we small chatted for a bit and had a cool place together, along with the group, until we decided to go buy beers and to the bathrooms, which were alone and by a small mountainside which decended into a super cool private place, we just looked at each other and started decending to it and then immediatly started kissing, the vibes were great in there. Little did I know that earlier, the friend that brought her had told her that it was forbidden for her to kiss me but somehow it helped it happen. Lol.

3.- When I was studying at Dentistry School there were lots of events called Congress, they all happened at the beach and even though they weren't on vacation we were allowed to skip class during those days, so of course I was always there. 

At the school, some days earlier to one of this congresses I had noticed a girl which I really liked, but had not met or even seen before, she was a little older than me but I decided to start talking to her, we chatted for a bit on messenger and it was an instant click, so of course we decided to hang out together at the Congress..

Once we were there, on the first day there was this huge party at the beach and of course everyone was there, including her and me, we were a bit shy and not making any big movement towards each other but I was having a really good time, until one guy I fucking despised from my school started trying to bully me for being younger and we almost started a fight (one small lesson her is that no one remembers assholes, I can't event remember his face or name, only that I did not like him at all, so congrats of being forgotten bro). When the fight started to break out she immediatly held my hand and pulled me aside, telling me to calm down with the cutest little face and inviting me to walk with her along the beach. It was night time, the weather was just perfect and we walked and talked for a really long time, until finally deciding to lay down on some benches, kept talking and looking and the stars, hugging and finally started kissing, it was super freaking romantic in every possible way, not everyday you have this kind of deep talks and specially me, because I only talk like this when someone really deserves my attention and boy she did, I even got sick at the end of the journey and she was by my side all the time, buying me medicine and food and being there for me. Suffice to say we didn't last long even tho we dated for a bit.

4.- I was really in love with a girl, she was perfect, had the most beautiful eyes and smile I had ever seen and was just like me in every way, we loved the same artists no one knew, same movies, we used to talk on messenger (yes I'm fucking old, get over it) all day everyday since we met and everything was like a dream for some time, the only problem? she had a boyfriend. 

We did not kiss or even express any feeling for us for the same reason, I did not want to push her in any way or interrup her relationship but the spark was the one in a lifetime kind, so one halloween, we were hanging out at one of her friends's house and having a great time, when her boyfriend came to look for her, found out my friends and I were also there and started fighting with her, leading to them to break up that same night and to my surprise, allowing for this next amazing sequence of events to happen.

Back then we used to rent hotel rooms to trash 'em out believing ourselves to be rockstars and we happened to have a room that night, we stayed there, including my friends and some of her friends. I don't really remember how it happened but one of her friends had to borrow my clothes to sleep in because all of her clothes got wet while partying so I had to sleep with a towel tied to my hip which looked super lame, we (she and me) spoke before going to bed, decided to sleep together and talked (more like whispered to not wake anyone up) for hours about everything, I was so in love with her that everything from that night is a little fuzy and I don't remember much of it because I was super nervous. Somehow we started kissing super slowly and in a better cute way for hours and then slept cuddling, later we found out that it was not our way of kissing and we both were holding on not to fuck it up but god I miss those lips. Best Halloween ever.

5.- Back in Sinaloa, when I was super christian and really involved in church both in belief and because my parents were pastors I met a this girl,she was a really interesting mix of asian and mexican, was drop dead gorgeous and also was very different from your average sinaloense girl, for starters she was rich and back then my family was the polar opposite, she was not the buchona type, did not listen to banda, or dressed like the rest of the girls, I was really into skate back then (and still am lol) and surprisingly she did too. You bet I immediatly fell for her, we chatted for a bit over the internet, met each other a few times but never had the opportunity to properly date because we were young af, even tho she was two years older than me, but everything was looking great.

Then I got the news that we were finally moving back to Saltillo (which was my hometown, was and still is my favorite city to live in), we had least than a month to keep talking and see each other but surprisingly, my trip back home coincided with a congress which was gonna take part in Saltillo, and she was coming to! This was a christian congress for the youth kind of event so of course we were not allowed to sleep in the same room or anything, but we spent the whole trip together, cuddling, talking and listening to music while sharing a pair of earphones, spent the three nights of the congress escaping from our hotel rooms to hang out and spend as much time together as possible and it was fucking awesome, I still remember what I felt for her and how in love I was even thought we never kissed.

So yes, to summarize everything, I do like romantic shit, romantic movies, situations, being passionate about someone, thinking about all the details, gift giving and making the person I love feel wanted, seen and the most importante girl in the world. And I thank God, the universe and everyone for this amazing experiences I lived, sorry for always feeling the main character.

I promise I'll try to keep on writting more often, need to keep practicing because ChatGPT is making me lazy af, but as usual, thanks for reading this far, I do appreciate it.